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ninety6tearsEven though I initially planned on buying Breaking Dawn the night it came out and rapidly getting through it to beat out any possibility of getting spoiled, I have yet to read a page. It took me a long time to actually compare the dates and realize that going to Lollapalooza meant I would miss the release party (kind of a bummer but really not a big deal), and for some reason after I got back from Chicago I just wasn't in any rush to start reading it.
Thing is, I have a fic to finish. It's not exactly a post-Eclipse fic, it's actually an AU that takes a turn somewhere in the timeline before the end of the school year, so it's not like canon is going to intrude on my idea. I just have to be cautious about staying in the right state of mind, I guess. The fanfic, while it's not some contrived punishment on the characters for what I think Meyer did wrong or whatever, is still an extension of my Jacob/Bella, human/vampire attitudes and so is unavoidably inspired by a lot of anger caused me by the series (if only on a sort of subconsious level. . .maybe I shouldn't openly admit any of this). So with this in mind, I could kind of lose my momentum whether the fourth book makes me completely forgive Stephenie Meyer or makes me angry for entirely different and potentially distracting reasons. So, I've concluded that before I read Breaking Dawn, it needs to be finished.
For stupid reasons, I was unable to go on a trip with my family today, and I'm home by myself. I considered devoting the whole day to writing since I've been pretty lazy recently, but in the end I'm a little too bitter about the way things turned out and just feel like treating myself to junk food and some time with my few friends who are actually in town. I believe that it is possible for me to crank out a fic before my classes start, but I'm not going to set any big goals because I don't want to feel like a loser if I don't meet them. Fear of failure FTW!
Thing is, I have a fic to finish. It's not exactly a post-Eclipse fic, it's actually an AU that takes a turn somewhere in the timeline before the end of the school year, so it's not like canon is going to intrude on my idea. I just have to be cautious about staying in the right state of mind, I guess. The fanfic, while it's not some contrived punishment on the characters for what I think Meyer did wrong or whatever, is still an extension of my Jacob/Bella, human/vampire attitudes and so is unavoidably inspired by a lot of anger caused me by the series (if only on a sort of subconsious level. . .maybe I shouldn't openly admit any of this). So with this in mind, I could kind of lose my momentum whether the fourth book makes me completely forgive Stephenie Meyer or makes me angry for entirely different and potentially distracting reasons. So, I've concluded that before I read Breaking Dawn, it needs to be finished.
For stupid reasons, I was unable to go on a trip with my family today, and I'm home by myself. I considered devoting the whole day to writing since I've been pretty lazy recently, but in the end I'm a little too bitter about the way things turned out and just feel like treating myself to junk food and some time with my few friends who are actually in town. I believe that it is possible for me to crank out a fic before my classes start, but I'm not going to set any big goals because I don't want to feel like a loser if I don't meet them. Fear of failure FTW!
