TIME TO CRY IN MY CAKE.

[ninety6tears]

So I had to drop startrekbigbang. My fic is simply too long. What I have written is nearing something like 60K and is only about 75% of the actual story as I'm looking at my little outline of doom here. Not gonna lie, I'm pretty sad about this because I felt like I was closer to the end than I actually was and it was kind of a sudden decision for me, and a really tough call. As it is I feel like it's far from impossible for me to finish at this point, but the dealbreaker is having the worry that I won't be able to fix things into as good a shape as I would want to otherwise. It's just really frustrating, when I've planned out the entire thing as working really well in one format and suddenly it's something that will just be a regular multi-chaptered fic. And even if I could see myself bringing this idea back next year (I'm patient, but I don't know), I actually already have another fic I'm planning on writing if I sign up again as it was the idea I dropped to work on the newer idea. Fuck-a-doodle-doo.

I will probably make myself feel better by posting a snippet of the fic at some point, now that I'm totally allowed to do that. But as of now I may actually get something done for reel_startrek, which is nice. It's just kind of weird to suddenly place my priority on something else after being so singularly focused on the big bang for months.

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[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

*hug* I will probably do that. It just feels weird to suddenly take a break from it, even though I'm also looking forward to working on other things.