[the sharp and the blunt side] - a bella/jacob mix

[ninety6tears]

1. Intro: Seagulls
2. Sunshine Superman. Donovan.
3. There Is a Light That Never Goes Out. The Smiths.
4. Secret Smile. Semisonic.
5. Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood. The Animals.
6. Puncture Repair. Elbow.
7. Of Angels and Angles. The Decemberists.
8. Somersault (radio edit). Zero 7.
9. That Mouth. Owen.
10. Martha Avenue Love Song. The Innocence Mission.
11. Easy To Please. Coldplay.
12. Fireworks. The Whitest Boy Alive
13. Wild Horses. The Rolling Stones.
14. Some Devil. Dave Matthews.
15. Plush (acoustic). Stone Temple Pilots.
16. Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometimes. Beck.



"Don't get mad at me for hanging around, okay?" Jacob patted the back of my hand. "Because I'm not giving up. I've got loads of time." We stood at a beach at sunset, do you remember when? I know a beach where, baby, it never ends, When you've made your mind up forever to be mine/I'll pick up your hand and slowly blow your little mind, 'Cause I made my mind up you're going to be mine, I'll tell you right now, Any trick in the book now, baby, all that I can find
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"Jacob, what do you know about motorcycles?" Driving in your car, I never never want to go home, Because I haven't got one, oh I haven't got one/And if a double-decker bus Crashes into us, To die by your side Is such a heavenly way to die
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"I wish I could change how I feel about you, Jacob." I was desperate, reaching, stretching the truth so far that it curved neatly into the shape of a lie. "Maybe. . .maybe I would change," I whispered. "Maybe, if you gave me some time. . .just don't quit on me now, Jake. I can't take it." So save me, I'm waiting, I'm needing, hear me pleading, And soothe me, improve me, I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now/Nobody knows it, but you've got a secret smile, And you use it only for me/So use it and prove it, Remove this whirling sadness
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There was something stuck in my throat, choking me. I tried to swallow it down, but it was lodged there, unmoving. I tried to spit it out. "Werewolf," I gasped. Baby, do you understand me now? Sometimes I feel a little mad, Well don't you know that no one alive can always be an angel, When things go wrong I seem to be bad/I'm just a soul whose intentions are good/Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
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"Why do you do that?" he asked. He tugged lightly at one of my arms, which was bound around my chest, and then gave up when it wouldn't come loose easily. I hadn't even realized I'd moved them. "You do that when you're upset. Why?" "It hurts to think about them," I whispered. "It's like I can't breathe. . .like I'm breaking into pieces. . ." It was bizarre how much I could tell Jacob now. We had no more secrets. He smoothed my hair. "It's okay, Bella, it's okay. I won't bring it up again. I'm sorry." I leaned on you today, I regularly hurt but never say, I nearly wore the window through, where was air sea rescue? You were there, Puncture repair/I regularly hurt but never say, You patched me up and sent me on my way, I leaned on you today
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What if she loved Paris? Not like Romeo. Nothing like that, of course. But enough that she wanted him to be happy, too? Jacob's slow, deep breathing was the only sound in the room--like a lullaby hummed to a child, like the whisper of a rocking chair, like the ticking of an old clock when you had nowhere you needed to go. . . .It was the sound of comfort. There's a tough word on your crossword, There's a bed bug nipping a finger, There's a swallow, there's a calm, Here's a hand to lay on your open palm today/As on we go drowning, Down we go away, And darling, we go a-drowing, down we go away/There are angels in your angles, There's a low moon caught in your tangles
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I was beginning to think that is was mostly Jacob. It wasn't just that he was always so happy to see me, or that he didn't watch me out of the corner of his eye, waiting for me to do something that would mark me as crazy or depressed. It was nothing that related to me at all. It was Jacob himself. Jacob was simply a perpetually happy person, and he carried that happiness with him like an aura, sharing it with whoever was near him. Like an earthbound sun, whenever someone was within his gravitational pull, Jacob warmed them. It was natural, a part of who he was. No wonder I was so eager to see him. You're the warmth in my summer breeze, You're the ivory to my ebony keys, You would share your last jelly bean, You would somersault in sand with me/You put my feet back on the ground, Did you know you brought me around, You were sweet and you were sound; You saved me
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"Never," I whispered, still locked in Edward's eyes. Jacob made a gagging sound. We had a good time Crossing those lines/Now that we're good friends, It's becoming more clear That your vampire boyfriend Isn't going anywhere/You put me on, You put on a good show
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His familiar husky voice sent a wave of wistfulness through me. A thousand memories spun in my head, tangling together -- a rocky beach strewn with driftwood trees, a garage made of plastic sheds, warm sodas in a paper bag, a tiny room with one too-small shabby loveseat. The laughter in his deep-set black eyes, the feverish heat of his big hand around mine, the flash of his white teeth against his dark skin, his face stretching into the wide smile that had always been like a key to a secret door where only kindred spirits could enter. Walking through the world, walking under trees, Many things that only you and only I have seen, When you say oh look and see, Then there is the sky, five o'clock in winter when the pink and green arrive/Now we're blown around, and I can't let you down, My sun and my sweetest sound, Oh you are my friend, oh you are my friend
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He slowed the car to a crawl, turning to stare at me with his dark eyes wide and earnest. "Just think about how it could be, Bella," he urged in a soft, eager voice. "You wouldn't have to change anything for me. You know Charlie would be happy if you picked me. I could protect you just as well as your vampire can -- maybe better. And I would make you happy, Bella. There's so much I could give you that he can't. I'll bet he couldn't even kiss you like that -- because he would hurt you. I would never, never hurt you, Bella." Love, I hope we grow old, I hope we can find a way Of seeing it all/Love, I hope we can be, I hope I can find a way Of letting you see That I'm so easy to please, So easy. . .
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"Will you kiss me, Jacob?" His eyes widened in surprise, then narrowed suspiciously. "You're bluffing." The heat is on for the action to speed up and tension to ease, We could keep talking but only be certain through physical means/Patience is just another word for getting old, Resolution just as impossible as letting go/Is there a hint of a vulnerable you there, a drift in your eyes? Could it be that the sharp and the blunt side have shifted this time?/ I wanted you, you wanted me, but he was there, Now let it be, let it be oh baby let it bare
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"I'll always be waiting in the wings, Bella," he promised, lightening his tone and loosening his arm. I pulled away with a dull, dragging sense of loss, feeling the tearing sensation as I left a part of me behind, there on the bed next to him. "You'll always have that spare option if you want it." I made an effort to smile. "Until my heart stops beating." Graceless lady, you know who I am, You know I can't let you slide through my hands/I watched you suffer a dull aching pain, Now you decided to show me the same, No sweeping exits or offstage lines Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind/Wild horses couldn't drag me away, Wild, wild horses, we'll ride them some day
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Instinctively, I knew that the new tear in my heart would always ache. That was just going to be a part of me now. I wish, I wish I was dead and you breathing Just so that you could know, Some angel is stuck inside of me But I cannot set you free/You said always and forever, Now I believe you baby, You said always and forever, Such a long and lonely time/Stuck inside of me
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That agony I could live with for the rest of my stupid, too long, stretched-out life. But it did matter that she was giving up everything -- that she was letting her heart stop and her skin ice over and her mind twist into some crystallized predator's head. A monster. A stranger. Where you going to tomorrow? Where you going with that mask I found? And I feel, and I feel When the dogs begin to smell her, Will she smell alone?/When the dogs do find her, Got time, time to wait for tomorrow, To find it, to find it. . .
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For one brief, never-ending second, an entirely different path expanded behind the lids of my tear-wet eyes. I could see years passing, and meaning something as they passed, changing me. I could see the enormous red-brown wolf that I loved, always standing as protector if I needed him. For the tiniest fragment of that second, I saw the bobbing heads of two small, black-haired children, running away from me into the familiar forest. When they disappeared, they took the rest of the vision with them. And then, quite distinctly, I felt the splintering along the fissure line in my heart as the smaller part wrenched itself away from the whole. Change your heart, Look around you, Change your heart, It will astound you, I need your lovin Like the sunshine/Everybody's gotta learn sometime.


...*individual m4a's can be uploaded upon request...
[ZiP]

Comments

[slantedsunlight.livejournal.com]

This lovely, and just what I needed to get away from all the spoilers. :) Bravo.

[vanessa-reis.livejournal.com]

i dont know most of the songs...

i'll download it. thaks!

[jsuis-la-suisse.livejournal.com]

Finally, a mix with bands/singers that I actually listen to! Cool!

(No offense meant to the makers of the other fanmixes! I'm sure that you don't care, but I wouldn't want you to think that I'm insulting your music tastes. It's just preference, after all. Like choosing Jacob over Edward, etc. :)

Anyway, thanks so much for the tunes ;)

[sweet-disaster9.livejournal.com]

I love it, nice selection

[impetusofadream.livejournal.com]

Could I plz have just tracks 1 and 11??? Thx!

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

"Seagulls"
"Sunshine Superman"
"Easy To Please"
("Seagulls" is just sound effects, so I wasn't sure if you wanted that or the first track after the intro). And sorry for the delay! I've been away from the internets!

[neversince.livejournal.com]

Snagging, thank you!

[marie-isabeau.livejournal.com]

I'd totally have downloaded if it was mp3 because I don't know how m4a works. Btw, how does it work, anyway? If you put it in mp3 I'll download with high pleasure 'cause it looks gorgeous.
=D

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

m4a is just the file format for iTunes, so if you don't have iTunes it won't work. I can convert all the files for you but I may not get to doing that until tomorrow or so.

[marie-isabeau.livejournal.com]

I'd love if you converted all the files! And I don't mind waiting, you're being so nice. Thanks for explaining me what is m4a.

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

Okay, you can download the mp3 zip here. Sorry, it took me a while!

[marie-isabeau.livejournal.com]

Yay! Thank you! I'm downloading it. =DD

[flowrs4ophelia.livejournal.com]

You should post this in fanmix again since everyone was MIA avoiding spoilers before. I think it's been long enough...

[fifthofdecember.livejournal.com]

holyshit.
i feel like kissing you.
your musical tastes are just incredible. :]]]
downloading as soon as i get back to my own computer!

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

:) Thanks!! Hope you enjoy it.