"I am not a lump of hash. I'm in charge of Factory Records...I think."

[ninety6tears]

I was looking over flowrs4ophelia's shoulder today while she was editing a character outline thingymabopper and was all "Damn, girl, how many characters are in that damn novel?" And then proceeded to have a little queen-out about how I feel like mine isn't a proper fantasy novel because "How many books in the genre only have like three characters you're supposed to care about?" while I was ironing my shorts. Okay, the answer is quite a lot if I think about it, but I find whatever excuse I can to complain about the damn thing.

Yeah, the status of my original writing. Did the public reading I had to do back in April. It was awkward but it went fine (this one chick who read her poetry blew my effing mind, and the other poet didn't show up. LOL poets). Had a prof (who I had never happened to have an English class with but I knew to be a pretty cool guy) come up to me afterwards and was all trying to convince me to get an MFA and of course all I could do was sort of thank him and nod cause you don't really respond to that with, "Yeah, except I couldn't really afford this semester, so..."

And like, somehow he knew about THE GODDAMN NOVEL, because apparently our English profs sit around with crumpets and tea and talk about their students all day long. You know, part of me feels really encouraged and grateful by the extreme amount of support the work got from the professor who instructed the class I was writing it for, but another part of me just really wishes it had been with a much stricter instructor and one who actually had picked up a SF/F novel a few times in his life, cause...IDK. And I kinda think it's neither modest or immodest to say that if I'm being motivated by a deadline to punch out a story I've been thinking about for over five years rather than coming up with something from scratch in the course of one semester, it's gonna be one of the more impressive projects to come out of the course. But I'm insecure and all that shit and part of me just wants to yap at all these people, "OKAY, WHATEVER, I COMPLETED A HOT MESS OF A ROUGH DRAFT OF A NOVEL. DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE NOVELS!?" I have this allergy to being over-congratulated and feeling too comfortable as if it's gonna kill all my motivation, which it might. I'm badly in need of some constructive criticism and after big bang season is over I'm gonna knock out a frikkin' rewrite and hand this thing to somebody and see what happens.



Day 12 - A song from your favourite album
Day 13 - A song that you listen to when you're angry
Day 14 - A song that you listen to when you're happy
Day 15 - A song that you listen to when you're sad
Day 16 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 17 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 18 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 19 - A song that turns you on
Day 20 - A song you've listened to after a break-up
Day 21 - A song that gives you shivers
Day 22 - A song you can't help but air-jam to

Joy Division - "Transmission." I'm going to cheat and say the Substance anthology is one of my favorite albums even though it's not an album, cause if I literally had to physically pick a limited amount of CDs to live on, I need like a sampler of all that is Joy Division.

(What the hell, I STILL haven't watched Control...)

Comments

[betweenthebliss.livejournal.com]

if you want someone to beta your novel (lol sounds so silly but you know what i mean) i am ALL OVER THAT. i used to do editing for my college's writing center, and i fucking love SF/F. and hey, congrats either way simply on banging out a rough draft; i still have yet to actually write a substantive portion of the novel that's sitting in my head right now. >.>;;;

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

eeeeee you are awesome, and I might take you up on that :) :)

[betweenthebliss.livejournal.com]

please do, honestly any time. <3333

[jolinar-rosha.livejournal.com]

no matter what happens, just know that I'd *totally* read a novel written by you. And give it to all my friends too. because you are awesome.

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

aww, don't make me blush and wibble all over the place! <3

[jolinar-rosha.livejournal.com]

's only truth. :)